It's My Endo-versary!

The endo community likes to celebrate the date we received our official diagnosis of the disease. We do this to celebrate our voices, our research and knowing that the pain was not just in our head. This year I would like to celebrate by thanking the people who have been a huge part of my journey (and also making Vegan Copycat Starbucks Pumpkin Scones). These people deserve a post all their own, but they know daily that I love them and how much they mean to me.

I first want to recognize my parents, they have been there for EVERYTHING, not just this year but through it all! When I am feeling down, lonely or just need a check-in, I know that I can count on my mom saying the right thing or my dad having an emoji that will brighten my day. This year has definitely been the toughest yet and I have realized that no matter what, I will always need my parents. I am pretty sure I have said I need my mama more than I ever thought I would at 32/33. But it is alright, we all need that from time to time.
I love them more than they know, well, now they will know because I said it. 💓

Last May, we need new pictures!

And, Nick,  I honestly don't know what to say; he has been there for all of my breakdowns, my I can'ts,  my 'why am I even doing this' moments. He has been my biggest cheerleader and supporter in all my crazy dreams this year. When swim was taken away from me, I have had so many ideas on the next new business venture and he has been there to listen to all of them, the crazy and the good ones. I am so truly grateful to have a partner in life with you and I thank you for everything this year, I never knew that someone could be there for someone as much as you have been there for me! I love you all the sammiches!

I love us

But this is more us.

I just also wanted to thank everyone else that has supported me; reading this blog, checking in on me and just plain ole letting me vent when I want. Thank you for letting me be a resource, a referral for new Drs and reaching out when you have questions. It has made me feel needed in a time where I don't know what my next step is.

   

WOW, I need to take a LOT more pictures of family and friends this year! But then I feel I was trying to experience more without my phone in hand at all times.

Also, the most random thank you...John Mayer. People have asked, why I love his music so much. Well, it's simple, every time I have something happen in my life, a new song comes out that explains EXACTLY what I am feeling in that moment that I cannot put into words. This summer, while he was on tour, he came out with "Carry Me Away", a song with the first verse that expresses some feelings that I have been trying to explain for the past few months.

I'm such a bore, I'm such a bummer

There must be more behind the summer

I want someone to make some trouble

Been way too safe inside my bubble, oh

Take me out and keep me up all night

Let me live on the wilder side of life.

(All but staying up all night, that I can't do that anymore, I can't hang past 10 anymore) 

I think that the biggest take away from this year has been; be grateful for all you have and let go of the things and people who are not there to help you grow and become a better version of yourself. I will say with all of this year's challenges that the easiest thing to do was to stop giving a (you know) about people and stuff that don't give a (you know) about you.

When Life Gives you Endo....always, always be grateful for who you have.